Decorators, need not apply!

So do you ever have that compulsion to suddenly move the furniture from one side of the room to the other? Or sit for a long, long time on the couch just looking around the room, thinking about how you could make it better, as in a new paint color? Or on the practical side, the functionality of the furniture arrangement is just "off" and you must change it! Now I know the men out there are thinking that we women are just bored and need a project, but that's really not true. We actually are striving to put forth a vision that we see so clearly in our minds, but it takes a few (or 10) different room arrangements to finally breathe that sigh of contentment; perfect design. Believe it or not, this post is not about decorating. Actually, I'm not quite sure which direction it's going, but I'll get there eventually. (smile)

Lately, as in the past couple of weeks, I've been contemplating life choices and consequences from those choices and wondering if I always would have had the experiences I've had from the consequences of those choices. Wow! My mind's really spinning, huh?! Don't worry, although we've all had our personal challenges (some more than others), I'll refrain from any specifics on mine and try and keep this light. As many have asked before me, here's the big question: Am I where I am in life because of my choices or in spite of them? Does God just sit back and know that you're going to take the wrong path, but later will guide you back to your future? I can think of many answers, but which one justifies my mistakes? I know, I know, I said I'd keep this light!

So as I spontaneously decided to move my office/guest room around, I felt this surge of energy, even when I was cleaning up the dead rolly pollys from behind the bed (because yes, I'd know they were still there even after putting the bed back!). And even when I was lifting ridiculously heavy drawers to the other end of the room, I still felt that energy. I could move mountains with that energy. I was taking control of the room and making it function better. And from that, I was going to be more productive in my work and the energy was flowing! Thinking of it another way, I was redesigning the room. Maybe that's how we women work; after receiving a ton of criticism from others and ourselves, we always need to talk and process through our experiences. We ponder over what happened, why and how we'll get out of it and then we analyze our thoughts from every direction, go into a sort of self-analysis and gain insight. And then, we can finally function. We have then, redesigned our lives. Kind of like a room arrangement; only with less fabric.

So I was finally seeing the vision of this room and knowing how to create it; yes, through furniture arrangement! Laugh if you want, but this is a straight metaphor to my earlier questions. Sometimes it takes a few, or 10, paths to finally see a room's vision, just like in life. And boy, are there going to be mistakes and wrong decisions along the way, but eventually, you'll see it! It's kind of like Edison when he was criticized for failing 3,000 experiments before he discovered electricity; he said that he had not failed, but discovered 3,000 ways that wouldn't work. So even with all of my choices in life that I've referred to as "mistakes," I need to remind myself of what I have gained from those experiences. I have figured out 3,000 paths not to take and a whole lot of vision along the way.